Tuesday, November 22, 2005
What's stopping you?
I need to spend a vast amount of time simply taking care of myself. This is really frustrating and I rebel against it mightily every day. I want to get more stuff done, but in order to take care of me, I have to cut back. This balance isn't easy to maintain and honouring it often stops me dead. Even now, I'm thinking about ditching my morning meditation so that I can write a proposal. But I know that if I do make the proposal a higher priority, I will pay for it later.
I suppose this is what it is like when you work in service of a larger vision, when you see the needs all around you and just want to get on with meeting them. It's so different to all my other jobs, where I could easily let go at the end of a work day. The only way I can see to transcend my physical time limitations is to work in a team, and that just takes more time away from the work. Besides, who on earth would I get to work with me on this esoteric quest?! I'm reading The Fabric of the Cosmos to try and find another way....
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I too have a quest. I bet there are more people than you know who could team up with you on different levels. I think all the great accomplishers of quests had help.
Good luck! And I hear you about the taking time for yourself thing - so neccesary.
I am also guilty of backing out of many an invitation. Frankly, I prefer the company of myself and my immediate family to most people. Hmm, I realize that sounds very hermit like but that's how it is :-)
But I have spent the last four months doing a whole lot of nothing except taking care of myself. There is nothing better! Yes - meditate. Yes - decline invitations. Yes - wang out because you don't feel like it today.
Over time, I have found that behaving like this has enabled me to identify my true priorities, and so focus my energies and strengths where they serve me best.